Naps

A little of personal art in between. Don't worry, I'm working on *Bloomedrose's art trade part right now and I'll try to do as much as I can this weeked. Just be a little patient with me x)

Every now and then I need to draw vent pics... Though those pics can be happy, too. c: You know... I know this situation could change any minute, tomorrow I could be a depressed dirtbag again, but right now...

In the past days, and maybe a little in the weeks before, too, I haven't been feeling... completely different from the rest of my class- and schoolmates. Instead of always being the one ending up all alone behind, I can now kinda talk to other people while driving my bike on my way to school or home... Yeah, it's hard sometimes to keep talking, but... it is actually possible. My neighbour in class is a boy I hadn't talked to before, but he doesn't treat me like a total nerd or some stupid person or anything. I kinda get along with him and sometimes we even have a short talk. Last year, I would've never been able to do that, in our class group full of jerks. When I see people I know in the city, they actually say hi... And I have some people who keep a place for me at lunch breaks and they don't even seem to mind my presence that much, OR they are very good at hiding it. I feel comfortable with them and I can even add things to the conversation without them being all "... why did you just talk."
And my Chiro group on Sundays... Some time ago I thought I'd never fit in, but it's been getting better and better. I heard from someone that some of them have mentioned me being a nice person... I thought they'd just think I was a whiner or a silent one. Some of them wentpaint balling last week and they told me I should come with them next time, too. I never get invited to things like that... anymore... I thought. c': And I can talk to someone about my life and stuff. She used to be my best friend, but we kinda grew apart. However, we still go to school together and we live in the same town, and she knows a lot about me (don't worry you guys know more though) so I can talk to her and I know she won't tell anyone else.

You see, at times, my real life is completely antisocial and I feel like an alien, but now... I kinda feel normal, like anyone else. And I know this won't last forever but I'll enjoy any moment of this feeling. <3

Also you guys make me happy, too. So if you add those two things it becomes like HAPPINESS

Talking over. xD

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