Silly you, you're not playing it right!

You're not supposed to do it like this, oh no, you should act unconcerned! Happy! No questions! That's what you wanted... RIGHT?
- I can't do this anymore...
- Well, is that so? Then end it.
- ... I can't.
- You can't do a lot, can you?
- But it's so hard to do either.
- You can't always stay an in-betweener anywhere. Everyone wants to be in between. Oh, how happy life would be that way! Sadly, that's not how it works.
Silence.
But the good thing is, the choice is up to YOU! Wonderful, right? You get to choose which side you pick! Now isn't that great?
Silence.
But that means you do have to pick. No "staying in the middle" thingies. You pull up your cover again and continue, or you end this for good. If you're not strong enough to end it - fine, but then you continue the right way. Without anger, without wrath, without envy and without suspicions.
Silence.
What's there to lose anyway? You lose a title. Wooo. Big deal. And what do you get to keep? Your innerpeace, your philosophy, basically your whole sanity.
- Grey.
- I know, I know. This is not my choice to make, and I am pushing you to choose the side I stand for again... But honestly, just out of curiousity, I sincerely want to know. I understand that you don't have enough of a free will, or a strong will that is, to end it, but why did you even start this in the first place?
- To try it? I wanted to find my luck. I thought I had to take initiative to be lucky. For once. To acquire happiness.
- Did you find it?
Silence.
I guess this was a valuable lesson then. At least it was something. Though knowing you, you'd do it again. Never learning from the past. And if you weren't stupid enough to do it on your own, Brown would probably make you.
- I thought that was the whole deal of this - to have you two cooperate.
-Cooperate, yes. Not ruining everything the other has built a minute before.
- Isn't that a bit harsh?
- Isn't it true?
Silence.
Remember one year ago? I was in charge. You were in a state of stability. Didn't need anything or anyone at that moment. That went great for about a month. Then it was Brown's turn.
- She did pretty well those two weeks.
- And after that you were ruined. Pretty well, sure.
Silence.
The problem with Brown is that sure, there are great moments of overjoy. But also deep downfalls. And currently the downfalls are kind of taking over.
Silence.
I mean, you are not really doing well when those happen. You become extremely angry. And then you don't let that anger out because you want to keep that thing you have. Not to mention you swear and curse - you never swear.
- It's somewhat relieving. If I pick the right words to use.
- They're kind of harsh.
- Doesn't matter. No one will hear it. And Everyone I swear to deserves it. Because they are - nevermind, I'll try not to use those words anymore.
- Why do you keep this up? After all of... Are those few moments really worth it?
- Right now... I'd say no. But when those moments happen... if they happen again... during them I'd say yes.
- But they haven't happened recently. I guess some sense is kicking in after all, eh?
- Maybe.