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If you critique, please give me tips and advice on how to improve the background. Thank you!

I hope Muro fixes the "I'm gonna duplicate every layer in the finished product but in Muro itself it will look perfectly normal so you have to screenshot, paste and puzzle it together in GIMP" bug because it's getting on my nerves - especially with pics like this because I can't screenshot them in one screenshot (pic too big for screen)

Rant ahead.
I hate it when people think they are important to me, without me telling them they are.
There's this person. We used to get along until he decided to be a perv and asked a question concerning photography of private body parts - and NO, I haven't done that and he hasn't asked more than once because my answer was pretty clear.
Point is. When he asked that, he knew that a) I don't like guys and b) I'm not into ANYTHING like that. He shouldn't have asked in the first place.
He drew my fursona as an anthro a few times. Which is okay. Topless. Which isn't okay. When I tried to make him clear that I didn't want that kind of stuff he acted all butthurt "you haven't been honest about your feelings" "I do one thing and you're making all of this drama" (= one journal without mentioning his name, saying I don't want my fursona involved in nudity. Is that drama?) and then he turned around and apologized.
Then things would've been fine if he didn't feel the need to bring the whole thing up every time we talked. Somehow it always ended in either "you don't trust me anymore" or "I messed up sooo badly, I can never trust myself anymore etc etc etc". But by that time, I didn't care about the whole issue anymore. I don't hold grudges, I wasn't angry anymore, it didn't matter. But he kept. Bringing. It. Up.
And that annoyed me. If there's one thing I don't like, then it's people bringing up things that don't matter anymore. So basically I got annoyed each time we talked.
And one day, after he typed another guilt-filled message, with at the end the conclusion thatif this was the end of our friendship he wished me the best of luck in my life (I didn't say ANYTHING about ending anything in my previous message) I just didn't respond because I was so. Damn. Tired of it all.

Though what annoyed me the most about his messages was the fact that he blamed himself for anything.
For example, me creating ~PaperclipsOfFreek, an account I fled to every now and then to calm down. He thought it was his fault I did that.
And was it?
Of course not.
During the school year, real life people have a way bigger impact on me than anyone on the Internet. It was issues with them who made me do things I did. Not him. But he assumed he did.
As if he's that important.
He talked about trust, friendship, respect as if we had a supernatural bond, a secret pact, a lifelong contract signed with our own blood. I don't know what made him think it was ever more than a normal friendship.
What made him think he was so important.

If he, he knows who he is, reads this... well then, so be it; You wanted me to be honest, you said I had no respect for you once. Well here's the truth. Nothing more.
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Tiber5z's avatar
I love your art. <3

And, lmao, is it sad that the first thing I did is see if he commented? Cx